As usual, I have been working on a number of things simultaneously and linearly. I want to talk about two of my projects, but I am going to put them in one post, because they are interrelated in a way.
Puppet Show
I was actually having a considerable amount of trouble with the puppet show up until very recently. The first attempt at the puppet show, Danny and I worked hand in hand with the development of the plot.
One issue I told him about pretty close to the beginning was that I thought the plot was becoming too complicated. He assured me that this wasn't an issue and encouraged me to continue the script in the direction it was going.
I completed a script, but I knew it was flawed. I could tell because I was unable to explain it to almost anyone else. There were so many aspects to the story, I didn't know how to coherently summarize it. When Danny and I presented the puppets during class and Luke asked me to describe the story, I got stuck. This made me embarrassed. If I couldn't explain my story, how could I perform it? If I couldn't explain my story, then what the hell had I done the past few weeks? It seemed as if I hadn't accomplished anything at all, and being next to Danny's great looking puppets gave me a feeling of inferiority. I don't say this because I want to prove my superiority. I say this because I wanted to show that I also worked hard on the project.
It was clear to me that I had to rewrite the script, but I didn't know how to go about it. I brainstormed a number of ideas and bounced stuff off my dad, who is always a great source of community. I wanted to focus more on the half-plant half-human character because I thought he could have an interesting story. My dad suggested that I write a play about the half-plant half-human's quest to realize who he is. I could make him go through a journey where he tries to be a human and he tries to be a plant. If I were to base the story off of the plant's experiences, I would be able to rewrite the story and keep all of the lovely puppets that Danny made. It seemed like a good compromise.
I rewrote the story, trying to include as many characters as possible and maintain some of the same artistic ideas of the first piece. The new script was an improvement, but I could sense that it was still lacking. Jessica and Emily pointed to a number of plot holes, and they made very valid points.
However, I couldn't find the energy to fix it. I simply didn't feel like it. Perhaps I was feeling discouraged from before, or I thought it would be too difficult to fix what I had. Regardless, I decided to read my autobiography on Augusto Boal instead for pretty much all of last week. At least that was productive.
I threw in the towel and told Luke I was having these difficulties on Sunday, after a week of inaction. The next day, I decided to give the script one last try. I saved it as a new file, so I could return to the old one, just in case. Then, I worked through each plot hole one by one.
Often, solving one plot hole opened another one. Fixing the plot meant changing major parts of the story. Because the script was in a new file, I wasn't afraid to change the story. In the end, it was a good choice. The newest script not only had less plot holes, but it told a better story, one that was less shallow and more meaningful.
At first, I added characters into the story so I would be able to use Danny's puppets. Often, they were included arbitrarily. Also, I artificially induced a number of plot points in order to give the story a forward drive. When I justified each of these plot points, each character became justified, and as such, more purposeful.
This taught me a very important lesson. When you justify each plot point in your story, you end up with a higher quality story. This happens for two reasons. First of all, a story with little plot holes is easier to follow, and the audience stays focused. Secondly, and perhaps more importantly, the process of fixing plot holes makes you inventive. It's an idea generating process, and the new ideas you brainstorm can add nuances to a story that improve it.
I think the script is near finished, and I am very glad, because I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to complete it.
Once I make final revisions, the production process will start. Danny will have to build sets, which I will help him with if he so desires. Then we will have to cast people and rehearse. For now, I'm simply going to enjoy my success for a few days.
Writing
As of late, I have been very drawn to writing. Why? I don't know. I started thinking about it after the movie I made last quarter. I wanted to make another movie, but I didn't want to make another music video. To make a movie with a script, I figured I needed to improve my writing skills. Then I started reading plays and I became more interested in the subject. The concept of writing became so powerful in my mind, I pretty much forgot about movie making. Does this mean I want to be a writer? I'm not calling anything out yet. All I know is that I want to write, so writing is what I will do.
At first, I had trouble accepting the idea of wanting to write. I thought, "I don't read very much in the way of creative writing. Why should I expect others to read what I write if I don't read what they write?" Personally, I don't read much fiction. When I do I generally enjoy it though. I prefer non-fiction. I do not like most short stories unless they have a reason to stick out to me. Don't even get me started on most poetry.
Another problem I had is I felt like I didn't have the right to write (excuse my rhyme). When I read I feel inspired to write. I don't know if it's just me, but I couldn't imagine any bookphile who doesn't want to write. Most people I know who are interested in reading are interested in writing as well. On the other hand, not many people I know are avid readers. So I imagine you have a small group of readers, most of whom want to be writers. How could I compete with that? How could I compete for existence?
I voiced these concerns to a friend of mine, who, being a a supportive and honest friend, told me it shouldn't matter very much. He's in the middle of writing a book, and he told me that he often doesn't finish novels all the way through. I can't say much for the quality of his writing, considering that it's in Spanish, but I figure if someone can write a book without finishing most of the books they read, then so can I. And why should I be worried about what other people would think?
I'm trying to do things because I want to do them, not because I feel as if I should. It's a very difficult habit to break, but I'm getting better.
So, about writing. One problem I had which I mentioned in my last blog post is that I was afraid I didn't have enough knowledge about certain subjects to write about them, and I was afraid of coming off shallow. Eventually I decided, screw it, I can write what I want. It doesn't become ignorant and offensive until other people see it. When it sits in my notebook, it is nothing more than practice. And I need practice.
What I decided to do was write down various stories that interested me, things I heard from the news, television, from friends, wherever. One story that has been stuck in my head is the incident where a chimpanzee ripped a woman's face off. The policeman who shot the chimpanzee dead ended up with serious PTSD. I understood in my heart why a police officer would get PTSD from witnessing a woman with her face ripped off and shooting the manic chimpanzee that did it, but I could never explain it.
I attempted to describe the tale from his point of view, simply as an experiment. At first I was having issues getting into the mood, but when I imagined the owner of the chimpanzee coming out after the brawl to witness the destruction, I actually started to cry. Because the image of the owner was so evocative, I decided to switch my writing halfway through to her point of view. As I wrote, I was literally bawling my eyes out. My brother overheard me and asked if I was ok. I quickly shook it off and assured him I was alright, I was only practicing with my emotions again. He was pretty upset at being fooled. I felt kind of bad, but not too bad.
I wasn't sure how skillful my writing was, but I knew I had a lot of fun writing, so I decided to continue. The next day, I wrote from the point of view of a person with Laron Syndrome after reading National Geographic. Yesterday, I wrote from the point of view of a mother dealing with a violent child after seeing part of a documentary trying to find the source of violence in people, inspired by the Newtown shooting.
When I put myself into these mindsets, I was able to brainstorm ideas on the spot, as if I was doing an improvised monologue. In a way, I guess that's exactly what I was doing, except I was writing it down instead of speaking it out loud.
As I wrote, I notice that I had a serious lack of detail and poetic language. However, I thought that my writing was better than it has been in the past, and that led me to another revelation.
Though I haven't looked at my past writing, I can recall from my memory that I have always made a very conscious effort to use excellent vocabulary. I thought this would make my pieces better. But that wasn't necessarily true.
The fact of the matter was I mainly used vocabulary to make my writing appear more intelligent. Often, I misused the vocabulary, made the piece unnecessarily complex, and removed a good amount of the sincerity. This was a serious problem when I took the writing workshop back in October that Alex noted. At first, I was in denial about it. I thought, "I've only made a few definition errors, but my writing is still of a very high caliber."
After reflecting on my own writing and some reading that I have received in English class, I understand that vocabulary is a skill that needs to implemented naturally, not artificially. Writers don't use big words to sound smart. Well, perhaps some do. GOOD writers don't use big words to sound smart. They use big words because those words are the only way they can describe a scene. The words come from necessity, not from superfluousness.
It seemed like I had the ability to write stories. Inspiration is becoming less and less of a problem as I lift restrictions from myself. What I need to work on is technical skills.
Writers use vocabulary to create an image. I thought about this as a metaphor through a painter. A painter paints what they see in front of them, a writer writes about what they see in front of them. It's much the same thing. From this, I decided to create some exercises for myself. Much the same way a painter paints a scene with colors, I was going to create a scene with words.
At first, I thought about concepts. For example, wood. If I could make a list of vocabulary words to describe wood, I could have those words at my disposal for when I have trouble describing a certain kind of wood I see in front of me. I tried to make a list of adjectives to describe wood, dividing them by type.
Color
- Rough
- Smooth
- Tarnished
- Stained
- Tainted
- Marred
- Decorated
- Antiquated
- Ordained
I had a lot of trouble with this, and I realized that this was because I was working purely from imagination. Painters often had a model that they depict in their paintings. Obviously, I needed to try and describe a specific object, and not a general concept. Perhaps I could work on a general list later, but this wasn't helping me.
I started listing adjectives to describe the first object in front of me, the autobiography of Augusto Boal. I described the book's physical characteristics. I apologize to Luke if the descriptions make you cringe. I tried to take care of it!
- Dandelion Yellow
- Used
- Curved corners
- Slightly worn
- Stained with pastels (this is more on the back)
- On a messy table
I then made it into a paragraph
The book sat on top of a messy table. Though the cover looked a dark dandelion yellow, its glow was diminished by wear and tear, and stained with a number of multi-colored pastel streaks. Its pages curved slightly at the edges.
I think this strategy paid off. Though I wouldn't say the writing is necessarily profound, I think that it does an effective job of describing the book. By separating the processes of description and sentence structure, I made my life easier, and I think it yielded a better result than if I were to have simply written a description without the preparation.
I've been thinking about daily practices again, specifically related to writing. I could imagine myself doing a daily practice where I describe an object each day. It's like painting a daily portrait. I could do the process I did above, using pictures of objects, people, rooms, scenery.
Before I dedicate myself to it, I would like to practice it more. But it's a good thing to consider, and I think these exercises could keep me entertained for a while. They truly challenge me, and I enjoy challenges.